Addiction

There is a way out

My Story

I am Alex and I am an addict, I am an alcoholic, and I most definitely have the disease of addiction. Throughout active addiction/alcoholism things felt completely and utterly hopeless. Try after try, rehab after rehab, therapist after therapist and still I found myself hobbling home at 5 AM in utter despair. The moment I stopped using my mind filled with immense chaos, and the moment I had one to ease that chaos I’d be off to the races again and soon in a blackout. I felt miserable, constantly bringing Chaos and terror to the lives of the people I loved most. Many times I just wanted it all to end because I felt as long as I existed I would use, and as long as I used I would continue to drag everyone around me into chaos and misery. I’m sharing this because today I don’t feel that way. Today I have meaningful connections and relationships with other people, and am working to spread love in this universe. Today I know that there’s a way out, I am 100% sure of it. The way out is not always easy, is by no means instant, and takes some time and effort, but can open the door to a beautiful life if done correctly. I am writing this page to describe to you what has given me certainty that there is a way out, in hopes that it may do the same for you.

My Path To Recovery

For Those With Addiction and the Loved Ones of That Person

Understanding Addiction

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About

Love Light Recovery

Love Light Recovery is a recovery practice which centers around spreading love and providing service to others. In doing these things the hope is that individuals will be able to find purpose in life and feel whole. The most important aspects of the practice include – finding forms of service to others that one is most passionate about, immersing oneself in those forms of service, connecting with others, and working to grow spiritually.

Love Light Recovery Program

A New Perspective on Addiction

Redefining how addiction is perceived to help improve general understanding of the disease

The Rebound Effect (Tricks of Addiction)

I explore how drugs can trick an individual into thinking they are worse in some area of life then they actually are, and why they think drugs make them better in this area.

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Problems of Identity in Those Who Have Addiction

Integration of the addict identity into ones greater sense of self is crucial someone when it comes to entering and maintaining recovery. In this post I explore why this is so important and how society makes this hard to do.

Understanding Addiction From Inside the Mind – For Those With Addiction and the Loved Ones of That Person

Awareness of ones own mind is extremely important in those who have addiction so that they can recognize when the addiction entity is producing thoughts. While useless by itself if someone has treatment strategies that are effective for them this recognition can allow them to realize the importance of lifelong enactment of such strategies.