Addiction

I am Alex and I am an addict, I am an alcoholic, and I most definitely have the disease of addiction. I am making this website because I know how it feels to have addiction. For me it felt completely and utterly hopeless. Try after try, rehab after rehab, therapist after therapist and still I found myself hobbling home at 5 AM in utter despair. The moment I stopped using my mind filled with immense chaos, and the moment I had one to ease that chaos I’d be off to the races again and soon in a blackout. I felt miserable, constantly bringing Chaos and terror to the lives of the people I loved most.  Many times I just wanted it all to end because I felt as long as I existed I would use, and as long as I used I would continue to drag everyone around me into chaos and misery. I’m making this website because today I don’t feel that way. Today I have meaningful connections and relationships with other people, and am working to spread love in this universe. Today I know that there’s a way out, I am 100% sure of it. The way out is not always easy, is by no means instant, and takes some time and effort, but can open the door to a beautiful life if done correctly. I am making this website to describe to you what has given me certainty that there is a way out, in hopes that it may do the same for you.

My whole life I felt as though there was a void within me. For a long time the void felt like a curse, something that only grew worse and worse as time went on and could not be satisfied no matter what I threw at it. I now realize that void was within me for a reason. The void was a calling to my true purpose, to spread love and be of service to the world around me. When I do these things, the void grows smaller and smaller. The purpose of Love light recovery is to spread this information in hopes that it can help others. I know there are alot of people out there like me, with voids that are seemingly unsatisfiable, which drive people to feel lost, empty, and hopeless. The purpose of the Love Light Movement is to: 1.) show people that this void can be filled through helping other beings and spreading love. 2.) give people opportunities to help other beings and spread love. 3.) Show people that there is a way out of addiction for EVERYONE 3.) Provide awareness of the true nature of addiction.